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Jun 6, 2009

Birthday and Anniversary

I don't usually talk bout the tragedy that had happened on our family this date. But now, I know I had become strong through the years, my tears no longer fall whenever the topic arises. I can declare that I had moved on, had escaped the doom world that I had blanketed me for years.

It has not become easy for me to accept the event, it happened so unexpectedly. Within 48 hours, we no longer have the person whom we call Mama. The event is still vivid in my memories even the 5 years had passed.

I had just arrived from summer school in the city in preparation for my college education. I went home to pick up my things and to have my Mom accompany me as I travel back the next day. She was so excited for me that she busied herself with the preparation. I am the first in my clan to go to this prestigious school that's why everyone has things on hand, the typical scene when someone is going somewhere. Someone is packing, preparing the delicacies, buying what I need for the 5-month stay and all. Suddenly, my Mom went inside complaining bout the back of her neck. After a few seconds, she vomitted and became unconcious. We called for help from our neighbors and carried her to the hospital. After diagnosing her, the doctor's declared that she's clinically dead (her breathing is dependent on the machines attached to her) and they can't know how to revive her because they can't perform test while she's at that condition. We haven't lose hopes. At midnight, we found ourselves inside a van, trailing the ambulance that will carry our Mom to the advanced hospital two hours away from our place. Then morning comes yet still my Mom's condition haven't changed, still in the ICU, hemorrhage in the brain. After few moments of greeting her a Happy Birthday, the doctors pulled the plug. The ward becomes cold, everybody is hysterical, and my Mom exited the hospital through the backdoor.

We are back in the van, travelling back home, classes start tomorrow, and the van reached the funeral home. We chose the coffin and prepared our ancestral house for the wake.

My Mom's 15 siblings were all present, some had arrived from abroad. As I look at her death certificate, the time of death was 8:03am, the same date that she was born only five minutes short. I was amazed to see that God had let her live at 57 years close.

I am now 22. I had finished with recognition the degree my Mom wanted me to take up. Her teachings are always with us as we deal with life. We can't never forget the good side of this event.

As you read this, please pray for her, God knows who.
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Gadgets Cause Pain

Unexpectedly, my Kubuntu and Ubuntu CDs arrived yesterday, after I had successfully installed windows. It was shipped last May 17 and I was expecting it at mid-July because it says 8 weeks. I had desperately wanted an OS last Thursday since I reformatted my laptop and the OS installation always fails. It turns off halfway the installation of Windows and the Ubuntu Gibbon live CD I had downloaded way back before won't boot. I discovered that I had burned some Linux such as Puppy, Freespire, Zenwalk and Gibbon but only Puppy (thanks to this tiny distro) loaded in my laptop, the others won't even give me the installation mode.

My lappy got infected by Win32 virus though I was able to remove the virus, the OS got messed up and repairing Windows won't solve the services.exe and explorer.exe errors. The problem got worse last Wednesday and it won't even load the Windows splash screen. So, I decided to reformat it and use the Puppy Linux to retrieve the files (I don't know the technical way of retrieving files from the hard disk so I used a 2GB USB to transfer the files to my sis lappy).

I had my sister working with me so that she can learn how to backup, format and install a new OS. Maybe she's a jinx that time. When I worked alone on the night, I had successfully installed the Windows.

While I am busy with the installation, she was playing NBA Live in PSP and was serious to learn the game. After hours of playing, she came to me complaining bout the unresponsive PSP. I tried to restart the thing but it's still on the same state. Then I go to the Recovery Menu and accidentally selected the format flash 1. The PSP is back to it's default setting and I can't even know if the CFW is still functioning (PSP is still unresponsive).

Now, I was able to boot up the Gibbon through Wubi and tested the two OS that I received. None had run fine with my 256 mb RAM. I need to buy a higher one. I was looking at tipidpc.com but with no success.
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Jun 4, 2009

New Beginnings...


Today, I made a tough decision for my future. I decided to accept a teaching position in a rural area far from my place. I have exchanged my comfy lifestyle to help in the development of young minds. (Naks! Parang politician).

The place is up in the mountains where the green meadows and trees are the common views for the eye. I still have my work under the Department of Education today but in a week's time I will be transferring to my High School Alma Mater. I have accepted the job since I want to experience and discover if I can be an effective teacher. As you had read my post on A View on Death, I was thinking of going into the academe but opportunities will not permit me. And now, it comes my way. But I still doubted about it when I heard the location in which I will be assigned because that means my internet usage will be shortened to weekends only (the time I have to go home), my access to the department stores and supermarkets will also be during the weekends only, I have to supply myself with bottled drinking water due to the scarcity of potable one in that campus, I will have to eat my meals in carenderia because no one will be cooking for me, I need to rent a house or live along with other boarders and of course I have to travel long hours every Friday just to be back in civilization.

I don't worry much of how I will handle a class. It's my first time and I feel that I should be thinking about the class once I get to see the students and the classroom facilities. I also have to study the lessons that I am going to teach. And of course, I need to get along with my colleagues.

During my interview, the very first question that was asked bout me is: Will you permit a teacher-student relationship or will you agree to your students if they are trying to court you?
My answer is of course NO. I don't like the picture.

Save the Nation through the Oblation
For the figure of a naked man, arms outstretched and face pointed upwards, symbolizing selfless dedication and for the service to the nation. The symbol that depicts the desire for knowledge ("clothe me with knowledge"). We'll make Mamang Oble proud!

Pray for my safety and guidance that I can surpass this challenge successful. And in the end, may I be able to decide if I will renew my contract for more teaching semesters.
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